It continues

I don't know what to write in this post, because I felt so disappointed on someone I really appreciate and I respect the most! But why he so ignores me when I try to tell him something! I'm totally upset and even this is very true on me, I still kept myself to continue my diet program. Yes, I still remain the same weight as I try to loss more, but felt so hard now! Because I weight very struggling in between 94-95kg! I hate it, and I want to be  90kg in this month. I'm kinda stuck right now don't know what to do.

Anyway, Congratulation to him because he has lost 52kg in half year! I'm so glad for him! I hope I can did like he do. Well, I don't know why my bad habit of eat is going to be very crazy for me. When my period come, I felt like eating so much! Man, It so hard for me now! Because I just had my month pay... Damm, I gain 1kg back~ So sad~ I can't believe it... I hate it~

God, Please let my stressful body go away?? Please!! I beg u!! I hope I can last this long!! I want to be a pretty girl as I'm so admire those contestant in Biggest Loser Asia. Totally so successful!! If I can't loss that much like them, I might going for the competition! I wanna be slim slim like "Fish" . Her weight is like 61 now! Damm I'm so admire her weight now!! X(

Hope I can last this and finish till the end!! Cheer up for myself!!

To the successful month!!

Last month, I was very excited about my diet program!! Yes, I did it.. I lost almost 7kg for last month!! Now I'm gonna aim another new target which means I want to loss another 5-6kg(If possible!).

Anyway, I don't wanna lose any chance I've been given all the way and I hope I can get more new new and sexy clothes that I always wanted to wear!!

But today, when I went to the herbal shop to buy some ingredients there's one aunty who called me "Lady boss" I'm so embarrass because I haven't married yet!! A bit heart broken as I still young just fits with a fat body!! Damm... Is been a month mostly I've been  laughed by other all the time!!

My heart really breaks like no one will knows~ Sigh!!! I really hope I can throw all the fats in my body now!!

Cheers!! XD I'll never give up!!!

Bloody ME!!

No idea at all... In this moment, I felt I'm so sad !! Could anyone just tell me, Why I'm so ignoring to be a normal one when people so looking down at me??? Even my family and friends they say I'll never success??? I don't wanna prove anything to them, just to believe myself I wanna be slim too! Will they just stop talking nonsense to me because I'll cry inside my heart when ever they say it!!

I wish I never be born like this, this is not I wish to!! Fat girls never be the same like the normal ones? Yes exactly for this who already set up the rules!! NO FAT GIRLS allow!! No priority to you!! You Fatty Boom Boom!! That's me I'm mentioning! Sigh!! Bloody mood and I wanna have vacation!! Please!! Just let me be normal!! I wanna work so hard to be slim!! My heart are now filling with fat's and tears who already surrounded it long time!! ARggghhhh!!

A bloody none cheerful day for me!! -End- Good night!!

Brand new December

Is the new December now!! Just wanna have a short update! I hope I can break a new record of my diet program. Because last month I had loss almost 5kg. So proud of myself and I'll just have to keep it up!!

So happy and excited to be myself that I'll never give up until I success!! Yipee~ Cheers for me!! XD

The Great Atmosphere of Love

Dear "You",

I've been waiting such a long time for a nice and comfort relation! To be part of this, I really used to be dump and no serious of such relationship. Just to be aware that, I'm so deathly crazy about you, as you don't really care about me. Why am I so determine myself to go on diet? Because of "You"!! But I keep telling myself, not because of you, this doesn't make through anything for me and you too.

I know I'm just writing some nonsense just to get your attention as you don't really care about it. I hardly to see you, as you so busy about your life! But I hope you'll get successful life and not like me yet I'm still a lost lamb who running around the circle of life!! Sigh!! I really wish to be by your side, and you need a most too!!

Anyway, Cheer up everything and I really wanted to go there and get to know each other well. Part of my life is to catch up things that I've been missed!! I want to catch up your heart!! Cheers!!

With Love,

-Nicole-

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The Program Continue...

Totally no disappointed in my mind now!! Because I did it, and I lose another 1kg. I'm glad I did well for this pass 2 weeks. But last 2 days when I jog around in my area, there's one kid who called me fatty aunty really make me so sad and down that day. But nothing can stop me from being so cruel to me and I continue my journey with slow jog.

From my mind, there's no turning back and I'm glad I did it this time. I'm so proud of myself and today I also saw there's a lady who really bigger size than me and when she saw me jog 2 rounds, she started her jog during my jog too. I don't know why she suddenly jog and I heard that she did call her friends and waited them at the park there. So is this means I determine her? XD I'm not sure but for sure I know a lot of people who did laugh at me when I jog. But in my heart it really hurts, but I won't stop this program of mine!!

To those who did laugh at me, one day I'm gonna be success too!

Cheers for me!! XD

Day 5

I think I can make it and I really wanted to be last longer. One thing I'm so worried is that, I don't know whether I can handle my food well or not? When ever I saw food at every where, I felt like so mouth-watering and wanted to have a bite. Another thing is, I saw some advertisement (Pizza hut!!!) OMG!! I felt like going to the restaurant and order it!!

I don't know why? I still can't make myself hundred percent fully control with my mouth!! haha~ But is ok for that, as long I have my jog morning and the evening jog everyday it is very good for me to burn more calories and fats too~

Currently my weight is 97kg. Can you guys believe that?? XD

I'm so glad and excited the next losing weight!! I'll keep it up!! Cheers for me yo!!!

Day 4

I'm looking forward for my weight~ I think I keep this up for a year, I think I can lose more weight? I just don't know it~ But I really hope when everything is settle for him and I am just in time to meet him up~ I'm so happy because I can keep this so much stronger and determine so much of it.

I can't wait to see him as he also wants to see me as well~ We've been such a long time never met, I hope I can enjoy the trip when he accompanies me! (Can't wait!!) XD

Cheers for me ya!! XD

Day 3

I maintain my weight so far. I'm glad as if you guys who have follow my twitter might knowing I had done 4 laps jog today!! I'm so happy and I'm proud to myself who really decided what I want and what I wanna be too~~

I don't want to be a fatty anymore, I hope I can last this and I wanna finish this task very soon! God please give me more strength and energy to continue this~ Thank you!! XD

Cheers for me ya!! XD

Day 2

It was a very incredible day I spent it very wisely!! XD I went for morning jog and also the afternoon session~ I'm so happy and glad I did it. I weight myself, I got my weight lost 3kg now~ XD So happy! I'll just have to keep up and Please do stay turn for all my info. I love to share with you guys! Cheers for me!! Thanks~ XD

Day 1

I don't know this right or wrong way to go on my diet program, but i do hope i can make it on and motivate myself more!! XD Ok.. I did go for a jog around my housing area!! Ya, I went back hometown this week. I don't know next week should i come back again? Erhmm, because I have some programs I might be going for the party? XD

Ya, what I ate for lunch? I ate mushrooms with shrimp. Is that nice?? I think that's good enough!! XD Oh ya!! About dinner, I don't know what should I eat??? Hahaha~~ XD I don't want some carbohydrate in my dinner, any suggestion anyone?? XD

Well, this is it for the Day 1 program~ Just started!! Tomorrow will be another day!! XD Cheers!!

Diet Program? Why?

I think some people who did read my previous blog that I still haven't finish my diet program as Now my weight is increase till 100kg!! Man... Can you guys believe this? Haha... I think this post might be surprise those reader who read this post!! XD Yes , his is a truly story about me!! Even my pictures doesn't look like me because I never touch up anything on my face or body and I just posing on the camera with a very small chubby face and body!!

I'm sorry if I did cheated those who seem my pictures and felt very ugly for me!! XD Part of my life failing with the word "LOVE" was very horrible for pass years I've been going through!! Mostly those guys who really admire me, I think they just want what they wanted to and not me the love in my heart. But wait there's one of my ex who do not thrown me up and he just like very respect me as his gf. I was too late because I've dump him(So sorry, I hope you can get a new gf). Why I dump him? Sensitive question, erhmmm.. Actually I felt I'm not a good enough person who can really satisfied him and I know I'm not the who he looking for(Just my feeling to think about "HIM").

Ok.. Let's move on my topic. I started to think this back because I found someone who i really admire and that person had join in a competition to slim down body. I just really angry and sad for myself. Why am I so selfish and no determination for myself to go on a diet program? Is this hard? I ask myself many times, one last thinking. I really felt like this time, I really wanna go the best. I don't want to lose myself and I also to be prettier and healthier!! Who doesn't like pretty and sexy girl, right? I wanna be like them too!! Please pray for my determination for keep myself moving on!!

Here's my plan(I want to list down so that I can refer back) : I'll go for morning jog in my garden area ---> breakfast will be oat and raisins!!

Afternoon ---> normal meal vege and fish !! No rice!!! (For god shakes, please don't let me see rice!! XD)

Evening ----> Jog in my area and raisins and yogurt will be my dinner!! XD

Sound happy right?? I have to make myself more determine for this!! Hope everything will be ok so do the person who I admire!! GAMBATEH!!!! Support you till the end of the program. One last thing, I hope that person who can keep in touch with me "ALWAYS".!!!!

Cheers!!! XD

Diet 2

Today evening went to Desa Park City again to jog, haha!! My diet program starts since 2 days ago, OMG I have to keep this on and I have to jog for every weekday. Damm it... I really hope I have the commitment to slim down my weight.

The 1st thing that I already slimmed down , go for shopping !! Yahoo.. yes, it is a difficulty for a fat girl like me to buy clothes just in normal boutique. This time I really have the confident and commitment to go this diet program.

Today, I went with my colleague Ai wah. She's talking about "Lala Qiong" and I asked her back is it "Ngah Ngah Qiong"? She tell me the "Lala Qiong" it means intestine pain. So it just means the same with the "Ngah Ngah Qiong"!!Gosh.. I thought I heard it I got 8 ears !! So silly!! haha!!

After get a jog over there, when I back home and make my salad for tomorrow morning and for the afternoon. So I'll be continuing my diet program tomorrow evening ... Go for me!!! Please pray for me to slim myself down!! :)

Diet

Can't believe I broke a chair in my office again!! Damm it!! I'm so sad, because I think I gain weight again! Damm~~ So I decided to bring my heart and soul out to get rid those junk and chunky food out of my head! Really cannot believe I broke another chair that I just sit on it just 2 months plus I think!

So the latest menu that I'm going for my diet is :

Breakfast - Vermicelli soup with tomato
Lunch - Salad or Coleslaw
Dinner - Bread + Water or Salad

I think , this can work for me!! I'm so sad now, because I'm too heavy!! I can't believe I gain so much weight ...

One last word, Please do support me and give me more effort to contribute my diet program! :)